Due Date? February 6th How far along? 19 weeks, 4 days
Total weight gain: 6 lbs
Maternity Clothes? About to go shopping for more clothes tomorrow, hoping to steer clear of maternity clothes in general, but it's time, the majority if my clothing is decently form fitting.
Stretch marks? nope
Sleep? When I sleep, it's either a deep, almost dead sleep or a constant swirl of dreams that leave me feeling like I didn't get a bit of rest. Most recent dream? Ryan Goslig moved into an airstream down the street and had just broken up Eva Mendes, so I invited him to spend Christmas with us and all our friends, he enjoyed our family so much that he now spends every Christmas with us and is an uncle to our kids- weird stuff people.
Best moment this week? Feeling the baby move! If I'm following the advice of old wives tales, the baby should be here February 3 (5 months from the first day you feel a real movement). It feels like the baby is telling me some kind of special message in morse code.
Miss anything? My regular "normal" because I'm still not showing a whole ton, it's easy to forget that I'm pregnant and therefore not eat enough or get enough rest because I'm just not used to someone else calling the shots.
Sleep? When I sleep, it's either a deep, almost dead sleep or a constant swirl of dreams that leave me feeling like I didn't get a bit of rest. Most recent dream? Ryan Goslig moved into an airstream down the street and had just broken up Eva Mendes, so I invited him to spend Christmas with us and all our friends, he enjoyed our family so much that he now spends every Christmas with us and is an uncle to our kids- weird stuff people.
Best moment this week? Feeling the baby move! If I'm following the advice of old wives tales, the baby should be here February 3 (5 months from the first day you feel a real movement). It feels like the baby is telling me some kind of special message in morse code.
Miss anything? My regular "normal" because I'm still not showing a whole ton, it's easy to forget that I'm pregnant and therefore not eat enough or get enough rest because I'm just not used to someone else calling the shots.
Movement: feels like this kid is doing somersaults, mainly at night.
Food cravings: no real food cravings still, I don't really feel like eating anything, so I just eat whatever is placed in front of me. Still trying to train my body to drink it because if I want anything, it is milk and cookies, this should come as no surprise to anyone that knows me!
Anything causing queasiness? Haven't for awhile, but then yesterday I was too busy and didn't eat enough, meaning I woke up feeling awful and needing food RIGHT THIS SECOND!
Started showing? My belly is still on the small side unless I've been drinking milk or eating cheese and am showing lactose bloat plus a baby bump, really comfortable, flattering stuff I'm sharing today.
Gender: Sonogram and coin flipping on the 25th!
Looking forward to: The sonogram! It is next Wednesday and because I'm measuring so small, I'm am desperate to see this little thing. To put everyone's minds at ease, I have spoken to my midwives at length about my size and they say I'm perfectly fine. The baby's heartbeat is a a strong 150 bpm and I in general have a petite frame. Even so, I want to see that the baby is actually the correct size.
Food cravings: no real food cravings still, I don't really feel like eating anything, so I just eat whatever is placed in front of me. Still trying to train my body to drink it because if I want anything, it is milk and cookies, this should come as no surprise to anyone that knows me!
Anything causing queasiness? Haven't for awhile, but then yesterday I was too busy and didn't eat enough, meaning I woke up feeling awful and needing food RIGHT THIS SECOND!
Started showing? My belly is still on the small side unless I've been drinking milk or eating cheese and am showing lactose bloat plus a baby bump, really comfortable, flattering stuff I'm sharing today.
Gender: Sonogram and coin flipping on the 25th!
Looking forward to: The sonogram! It is next Wednesday and because I'm measuring so small, I'm am desperate to see this little thing. To put everyone's minds at ease, I have spoken to my midwives at length about my size and they say I'm perfectly fine. The baby's heartbeat is a a strong 150 bpm and I in general have a petite frame. Even so, I want to see that the baby is actually the correct size.
Pains? I am generally sore around the bottom half of my belly, I've had some serious round ligament pain that felt like being stabbed, but massaging helps a lot. So if you come into the restuarant while we are busy and I'm massaging my uterus, now you know why :)
This week has been crazy. Kenny and I are both working tons to get everything paid for and to get our house ready to put in the new flooring that I am so excited for, I can hardly wait. We are finally getting around to decorating our house and fixing up various things that have been destroyed over the course of five year and four animals. Plus we got to spend time with family. However it's always a little bittersweet for me, seeing family makes me so happy, yet also makes me want to live 3 hours away from all of our family instead of 9. It was so nice having people over for dinner. I love getting to cook for other people
I've also found time to throw a couple fits this week. Here's the thing, I have had basically the same body since I was twelve. I have a small muscular frame that has very little curve. Due to this body type, I tend to wear clothes that are cut very close to my body and tailored to fit it. So this 6 lbs sticking out of the front of me means the majority of my clothes are pulling already. So I threw a fit in the closet and my delightful husband said lets go shopping this week and I yelled "I don't want to go shopping" because that makes sense and will clearly solve the problem. Then I cried. It's much more difficult seeing my body morph than I thought it would be. I keep thinking that once I've grown beyond the beer belly and people know I'm pregnant not over-indugling, I'll embrace the change more. While I would like to blame crazy, irrational, purely emotion based thinking on pregnancy, I have always been this way. Feel for my husband, this is not a 9 month bout with crazy as much as it is a lifelong sentence.
Lately I am filled with such a horrendous amount of gratitude, joy and excitement about what is going on in Kenny and I's life that I can hardly contain my love for this world. Then the next second I'm crying because I'm tired or didn't cross something off of my to do list or some irrational fear pops into my head, then I'm crying :). Kenny is trying to get me to live in the moment which would solve a lot of issues that I tend to make up by sitting in my own head space for too long. If anyone has any tips on how to do this magical zen like thing, I'm all ears. Thanks for taking this journey with me!
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